Break Away

From having goosebumps to teary eyes, I realized one thing.
The best gift of time is taking it slow, without any expectations at all. To expect something in return would only harvest you further disappointments, and not to mention heartaches. Moral of the story: Let it be, let it be. Whatever will be, will be. There is a time and a season for everything, don't rush into things.

What are you most afraid of.
Just the other day, before our San Pablo stint, Blowfish finally confirmed my fears of a recent premonition. The "rival" and her bf finally called it quits, and what did little Miss Pink Panty do? Cried, yelped, panicked and cried some more. I even shed a couple of tears in the lockers, thanks to my imaginary friend Raechie and my gay boyfriend Chase who comforted me with words of encouragement. "Lahat ng tao tanga, Angge. Sige kung diyan ka magpapakasaya sa pagiging tanga, then go!" Thanks, Chase. I love my gay boyfriend. Always there to give me the oompph and the lift when I'm down. And yes, my dear... don't worry because I am happy with being stupid. I didn't tell them though the reason why I was crying. Only Blowfish knew... the era of Miss Pink Panty is close to its end. Hello, Judgement Day!

Lovesick Daisy.
Finally, Maier has added the final touches to her blog, kudos to you, girl! I miss my sister so much, and we don't have the time to shop and smoke and have coffee and annoy people together anymore, huhuhu... We still have a pending Red Box gig, and I sure am looking forward to it! Read her blog, and a line there touched me: "I am not going to be a lovesick daisy anymore". Way to go, girl! You're right, WE shouldn't be lovesick daisies anymore. WE should continue to live on our own, without thinking about those fuckin' boys who made us cry. And yeah, quit the Rockstar thing. He's not worth you at all. As for me... maybe I should stop being a lovesick daisy, but for the meantime, let me indulge in some more bittersweet chocolate cake before I finally lick off the icing from my fingers.

Cleaning the clutter.
Last Tuesday I cleaned my room and my closet and discovered the clutter that has evolved into trash. Symbolic of my cluttered life, yeah. So I cleaned 'em out and finally organized my closet, thank God. Bye bye Fruit Salad (I call my closet Fruit Salad because my clothes are REALLY disoriented, believe me). It felt so good, seeing that my room is clean and my clothes arranged neatly. I have discovered long-lost mementos from College and pictures of ex-boyfriends. How I miss my College friends... wish I'm back in school. Wish I could live my life again so I would be able to straighten out some things and issues. But well, no regrets. I only regret the things that I didn't do, but for all the things I have done, I loved them all.

Haircut.
Got a haircut and think it suits me, but how I miss my long, wavy hair. Oh well, at least they don't give me a hard time anymore whenever I give a blow job, haha.

The Sweetie, The Purple Dino and Mr M.
To all of you, you fools... I am starting to reorganize my life and you are the most fantastic thing that has ever happened to me. It started with The Purple Dino, then along came Mr M and now the culmination is with The Sweetie. You broke my heart, cheated on me and made me cry. I broke your heart, cheated on you and made you cry. We're just quits. Life is a foolish game, and if you gamble and lost, then play again. I finally mastered the art of holding back, and this time, I assure you... the next time I will love again, I'm gonna make sure it will last.
And no, the issue with The Sweetie isn't through yet. But like I told Blowfish, I am savoring it as long as it is here because my era is soon coming to its end. Damn. Why do I have psychic powers?

The Elements.
We went to San Pablo with Blowfish and Carlo and swam in a man-made ice-cold pool. And that was where I realized that I can discover my Path once again. I was a lost sheep, and now I am back in the business. Hail to thee, hail to thee! I was too caught up in my own world and materiality that I forgot who I am and what I was here for. Spirit has a way with things, and I am so thankful that I was there. I did not only get the chance to spend quality time with my friends and with myself, but it made me a stronger and calmer person. Om Shanti.

Dynastic Cycle.
And if my era is ending soon, I am not thinking more of it. I am creating my own fears and feeding it with all my negativity. Think of light, think of beauty, think of love. I work magic with my thoughts, and if I think more that it will happen, then it will be. Just be positive, and everything will turn out right. If he is not for me, then let him go. Some soul is out there to complete you. And life is just like that. We go round and round in circles. The only way to break free is to learn from your mistakes and move on. Live like there is no tomorrow. And then, break away.